Cheat Day

So, yesterday I had the first MAJOR cheat day since I have started daily calorie counting. I made the mistake of not eating breakfast. I meant to grab a banana on the way out the door, but I was so rushed to get to class I forgot. I had been studying like crazy for my midterm exam that I'd be taking that morning, and also working crazy hours this week trying to get through orientation to the hospital and the unit I'm working on. By the time I finished the test, I was just mentally exhausted and physically starving. I went to the vending machine at school (our cafeteria isn't open during summer, which makes me so angry), and got some Cheetos. We were supposed to go back to class for lecture at 10:40, but someone's computer messed up so we ended up sitting around until 11:15. I finished the Cheetos and then started craving something sweet so I went and got some fruit snacks. (Oh, it gets worse).

I got out of my class at 1:00pm, and then had to drive about a half hour away to get some scrubs for work the next day and then I had to stop at my work to get my TB test read and get a vaccine. So by this time it is like 4:00 and I still haven't eaten anything of substance all day. So I decided I really wanted Olive Garden. I haven't eaten there since I quit 3 months ago and I really wanted a calzone. The calzone itself is bad enough, but it comes with salad and breadsticks so yeahhh.

Then we went out to eat at 7:00 for my husband's birthday. At this point I was so far off the deep end I figured I might as well just go for it .. haha, so I had chips and guacamole and my dinner (although I only ate about 1/4 of it because I was so full), and then a margarita and ice cream cake when I got home.

I felt so guilty at the end of the day but I also felt good about something. It has now been a month since I began this journey and I really really feel like it is now a LIFESTYLE CHANGE rather than a diet. Yes, I'm going to have days like this. My weight is going to go up and down at times once I get to my goal weight. But it is better to let yourself have a cheat day once in awhile than breakdown and just go nuts. So, I enjoyed my cheat day but today I was back to normal! Just something to consider!